the pain of letting someone down never makes me feel any better

the look on their faces when you say I'm sorry or

when you try to explain yourself that look is the one i dread

i no longer can satisfy them the way I always wanted to

you never know a person until they can express themselves to you

or more commonly when they let you down

the feeling that you can be the closest person to them

flies away when you see that you have been replaced

some cases where you let them down and its not where you're replaced

it is where you are abused

verbally or physically it still leaves scares in your mind where they can never be erased

you start to cry and they abuse you even more

you feel the pain of them hitting or calling you names

the pain of letting someone down never goes away

NO ONE IS ABLE TO TALK ANYMORE

EVERYTHING SEEMS SO IRRITATING NOW

DEALING WITH SCHOOL AND ECTETARA

I'm my own person

No one
can or will change me

I can do what i want to and not listen to
anybody

But i choose not to go that path

The only rule i have for that is to not take for granted of what i
give

I
will do no wrong if you do me no wrong

Remember I'm still my own person

I am different

Don't compare me to someone I am not

People are made individually

We were made to be different

I'm the only one with my DNA

No one has the same features as me

I am unique, genuine, different

I am different

I

I l

I lo

I lov

I love

I love y

I love yo

I love you

I love yo

I love y

I love

I lov

I lo

I l

I

I

I a

I am

I am f

I am fa

I am fai

I am fait

I am faith

I am faithf

I am faithfu

I am faithful

I am faithfu

I am faithf

I am faith

I am fait

I am fai

I am fa

I am f

I am

I a

I

"Inside and out"

Beautiful inside and out

People enjoying your company all about

Something that clicks,something inside

But for some reason you're trying to hide

There's beauty inside of you

It's like a sweet aroma coming from you

Gabrielle knows the story. But she forgets,
At times, the ending. She knows how to ride
Beauty as it breaks across the stones,
Relinquishing the few, sad things she owns;
In her heart, ecstasy replaces pride,
Easing the distinction between in and outside,
Leaving her mad joys and calm regrets.

A twin is like a mirror on
A childhood bedroom wall.
Even in one's memories,
No thought eludes reflection.

The partner of one's springtime is
The phantom of one's fall:
Even living far away,
Still part of each perception.

O bond unbreakable! The sharing
Of one crowded womb,
One birth, one infancy, one time
Two equally must own.

How beautiful! A lifelong pairing,
Though there now be room
Enough to roam the whole wide world
Yet never be alone.

A little girl needs Daddy
For many, many things:
Like holding her high off the ground
Where the sunlight sings!

Like being the deep music
That tells her all is right
When she awakens frantic with
The terrors of the night.

Like being the great mountain

That rises in her heart

And shows her how she might get home
When all else falls apart.

Like giving her the love
That is her sea and air,
So diving deep or soaring high
She'll always find him there

We all hide under fake Identities, hoping we are what we want each other to be. Disappointment slowly shading our lives in black ink, turning dangerously invisible as we go through life. We wait as if we can read minds, depending on others for answers to our own questions. Beautiful, often marked as distrust & uncertainty, we seek out the ugly & grant them with harsh words. Unfair laws trap us in chains, unable to fight for ourselves. We try to describe life & end up in tears.

RUNNING

AWAY FROM ME

SCARED TO CONFRONT MYSELF

SCARED TO CONFRONT WHO I CAN BE

RUNNING

THE PRESSURE IS ON TO DO THE BEST YOU CAN

THE PRESSURE IS ON TO NOT BE LIKE OTHERS WHO RAN

THE PRESSURE IS ON.........

THE PRESSURE IS ON THOSE WHO CAN HANDLE IT

THE PRESSURE IS ON THOSE WHO DON'T QUIT

THE EMOTIONS HIT YOU LIKE A FULL COURT PRESS

TURNING YOU INTO A FULL COURT MESS

THEN YOU GET A CHANCE TO OVERCOME

BUT IT'S YOUR CHOICE TO TAKE IT

OR RUN............

TODAY IS THE DAY I SING

TODAY IS THE DAY I REJOICE

TODAY IS THE DAY I MAKE MY...

BIG CHOICE

TODAY IS THE DAY I USE MY WINGSand FLY

TO SOAR IN THE AIR

SO VERY HIGH

TO RETURN AGAIN

THROUGH THE NIGHT SKY

I am somebody who cares

I am somebody who loves

I am somebody dares to always stay above

He someone who is smart

He is someone who is brave

He is someone who has a big heart and who gave

He is somebody

She is someone who is kind

she is someone who has grace

She is someone who can find the finish line to this race

She is somebody

We are somebody

new book great teacher!!!

i actually write these so called "books" if you will, and i never like any of them. except this one im working on now. i got the inspiration from one of my quest teachers. ive never had such a driven teacher before. she is amazing even if i only knew her for a week. she is also writing a book and read it to my quest group. the book has a great chance of being published. i would immediately go to a local library or book store and buy it. i could read it over a million times and never get tired of it.i never wanted to leave her class i wanted that book to last forever.

my favorite thing to do is not draw art but it is to write fictional stories. i just don't like fairytales and fantasy. my favorite are mysteries. with fiction nobody can tell you the characters are wrong because they are made up. you can make up anything you want and it can never be wrong. i love to use my imagination ecspecially in fiction.

WHAT a day

JUST LEFT QUEST TODAY IT WAS FUN BUT TIRING. I MISSED MY BUS AND HAD TO WALK TO SCHOOL. MY BROTHER AND I ACCIDENTALLY LOCKED OURSELVES OUT THE HOUSE. HE FOUND A WAY IN WHEN HE GOT HOME THOUGH. MAN, WHAT A DAY, NOW LETS SEE WHAT ELSE IS IN STORE FOR ME TODAY!

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